cluelessblonde

Here I stand, Hatred burning deep inside, Trying to keep a grip on my life, What should I do? Here I stand, Drastic actions on my mind, Cause of this pain I try to find, Tears slipping down my cheeks. Here I stand, Black cloud above my head, Wishing I were dead, I do not know what's happening. Here I stand, Feeling confused, sad, upset, Worhtless and depressed, Too many thoughts in my head. Here I stand, Head clear, mind made up, Realised I've had enough, Ending this torment the only answer. Here I lie!

Here I stand, Hatred burning deep inside, Trying to keep a grip on my life, What should I do? Here I stand, Drastic actions on my mind, Cause of this pain I try to find, Tears slipping down my cheeks. Here I stand, Black cloud above my head, Wishing I were dead, I do not know what's happening. Here I stand, Feeling confused, sad, upset, Worhtless and depressed, Too many thoughts in my head. Here I stand, Head clear, mind made up, Realised I can't give up, Slowly finding the strength and courage. Here I still stand!

I'm not sorry for a thing, For I have done nothing wrong. I'm sorry if it's been hurting you. But I've been hurting all along. I'm not sorry for the way I act. For I don't hate a thing I do. And if you not okay with that. Then I'm not okay with you. I'm not sorry for a thing I've said. For I have still not told one lie. But your excuses seem to bring me down. And they even make me cry. I'm not sorry for the things they think. For we both have never cared. And if this is why this keeps on happening. Then this is too hard for me to bear. I'm not sorry for a thing I've done. Except being to blind to see. Too blind to simply fal

He slips into my dreams at night And leaves his taste upon my lips He takes from me but makes me whole With just a touch from his fingertips And visions of him dance behind these brown eyes But this secret i'll never reveal And every word i say is twisted with lies Cuz i can't tell him the way i feel He whispers in my head, i smile His voice still takes my breath His eyes i fall into forever into Beautifully sweet slumbering death And visions of YOU dance behind my brown eyes But this secret i can never reveal And every word i say is twisted with lies Cuz i'll never tell you the way i feel He's the last image i see before i sl

I flick my cheap lighter. No fire comes up. I flick it again, and recoil in surprise at the size of the flame. I forgot I had set it to maximum gas. Well, a light is a light. I suck in deeply as the smoke slowly dissipates. Ah, but for the lust of life. Sure, I may be taking away seven seconds of my life with this one stick, but a life lived in caution is a life not worth living at all, wouldn’t you agree? Twenty years from now, you’ll regret the things you didn’t do more than the things you did. Live life with abandon. Must I go on quoting clichés? I don’t know what the shit is with this whole suicide thing. There